Read this:

The “Once in a Lifetime” Paradox
A life that chases rare experiences is all breadth and no depth.

https://markmanson.net/the-once-in-a-lifetime-paradox

The line that hit me in the gut:

"... it’s easy to keep loading up your life with opportunity after opportunity, meanwhile disconnecting yourself from what makes those opportunities worthwhile in the first place.

I think this is what often happens to the lawyer who works 80-hour weeks until she is fifty and then one day wakes up wondering what it was all for. Or the hustler who climbs his way up to become VP in a major company, only to realize that his kids are grown and he never really got to know them."

Yeah, that last line.